>>7317347 (PB)
>That movie was amazing. (Intersellar) Especially the understanding about love. Love cannot be tracked by evil and guides us home, always. Time is not a barrier.
I can't get this post out of my head, I'm feeling compelled/pushed/directed to post my thoughts & experiences, maybe there is someone here who will benefit.
Goes back to when my father was dying from cancer, he was told he had a tumor and was scheduled to see an oncologist, he asked me to please drive him and Mom to that appointment, he wanted me there. I sat there while the doctor gave him the news, six months to live. Dad was my hero, he was the most honest and kindest man I've ever known, since a young child I strove to be like him. Other then a few days, I was with him every day until the last, I told him I'd walk the road with him and to lean on me as much as he needed, I owed him that. It was the hardest thing I've ever gone through but in an odd way I felt blessed, there was nothing left unsaid between us and we grew closer than we had ever been, so many never get that chance, many get a call a loved one has passed.
Early on after we got the news he asked me to promise him I would find a way to at least try working for myself, he said there is nothing like being your own man, I made that promise and instantly started making plans and he helped me . About three months in I had a dream one night that Dad and I were standing out in his huge barn where he had built an office that was now sitting empty. We were talking about how I could use it for my office and where I could put a new entrance door. The next day I once again stopped in to see how he was and what I could do for him that day, after a few minuets he said he wanted to show me something outside. We headed out and he walked toward the barn, halfway he told me, "I had a dream last night and I have an idea I wanted to run by you." The closer we go to where the office was the more I wondered, "He's not going to talk to me about that office, that can't be." As we entered the barn he pointed to the office and before he could speak I said, "Dad, your not thinking about me using that for my office are you? Was I in the dream with you?" Indeed he was and yes I was in that dream. We connected in our dreams, our bond had grown that strong.
After Dad passed I would see him in my dreams but I could never get close enough to talk to him, every time I saw him he was his younger self with the wire rimmed glasses he wore when I was a small boy, not the older man sick and thin. I remember my Grandmother telling me repeatedly one day we'll be reunited and we will be reborn young, healthy and without any earthly illnesses, that's just how I was seeing my Father.
I had one last dream when I saw my father, this time it was not here on earth, this time we spoke, this time I was able to visit him where he is now. He told me I couldn't stay and I wasn't suppose to be there, I'd have to go back home but he'd wait for me there. When I looked outside the door I noticed everyone's home was different, side my side one place would be futuristic, one vintage, some a mix of both, I asked him how that could be? I asked him, "When I go back, how am I going to be able to describe this to my sister?" He said, "Here you have things the way you want them, your life here is what you make of it, tell her it's the same on earth, life is what you make of it. Now you have to go home."
I woke in a sweet, but with an overwhelming feeling of Love and Peace. I no longer fear death, I don't look forward to it but I don't fear it, I know one day I'll be going home and I know I'll be rejoined. Love truly is everlasting and there are no bounds, with Love there is no timeline.
I survived my cancer four years ago, God kept me here for a reason, I don't know what his plans are for me, I just put myself in his hands and Pray for the wisdom to know the tasks he puts before me. I am so thankful and feel very blessed to be here during these days to be a witness, I hope and Pray everyone understands we are here for a reason. I also hope you have the faith and know one day we will all be reunited with those we Love who have gone before us, it's a very thin wall that separates us and it's one Love can and does freely pass through.
I needed to post this for some reason. Now I feel I've completed a task and can sleep without a nagging feeling of regret if I hadn't. I hope it helps someone.
God Bless you all, I Pray for everyone, please Pray for me.
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