MI or someone, please get this guy some help.
You are never alone, really. Stop thinking and start listening. If you are targeted, learn op-sec, and control your actions. Evil or violent thoughts should be shrugged off as that is the evil trying to manifest through you. Listen to your heart. Find joy in the smallest of things. Enrich yourself, by doing that you steal your time back for yourself. You can stop living in their society and still live in this world. Just keep your wokeness on the fly. if you want to take an active roll, learn to bake learn to dig learn to love. Remember we ALL have been drunk on their lies. We all must try to find forgiveness in our hearts.