does your family know what your going through?
why don't you go on vacation and get away for a while. take a tent if you have no $. see if you feel better away from them.
kek.
then sign up for some classes, youll meet some new people, find friends, and get a cute dog. its easy to meet people at dog parks.
there is the sphincter again.
sorry! Didn't mean to dox you.