I know this duality well.
I was 23 when I "woke" up, 17 years ago.. I was coming of age and should have had a bright career ahead but because I knew the truth I couldn't bring myself to participate in the system at all. So I jumped on board the nebuchadnezzar.
What that actually translates to within the inception of the Matrix dream IRL is poverty and the threat of someone throwing a straight jacket on me if I reveal too much.
I have learned through bridges burnt socially, and gypsy life that I had to keep my knowing secret…the way I have found that is best is to emphasize the Quantum knowing, healing, and musical aspect of the Great Awakening. People don't want to know about the satanic hold on our world, the baby eating, and "99 percent in the hospital" view.
All around me people have been living normal lives, getting married, finding a career, having kids and I am alone still, too "crazy" to be normal…but wanting that with all my heart. This movement has given me so much hope that our new normal will give rise to the Truth, so the emptiness that has plagued humanity will be filled finally with True Love of God and of our Planet and beyond….