I know there is a plan but i am just over it. I want these people to suffer in pain like they have made us suffer. I want them to feel alone like many of have become because the friends and family we had abandoned us, think we are crazy. I am sick of it and i just want death to come to these people. I want to follow Christ but how can i when all i feel is hatred and wrath, towards these people who only want to destroy us. I want there to be peace and love but i dont feel it anymore all i see is darkness. My heart is gone my health is gone, fuck it.