Another female anon here. Two miscarriages before was able to carry my son (only child) to term. Was years ago. Felt like a ticking time bomb the entire time was pregnant with my son; couldn't enjoy it. So much for "that glow". I was just trying to get to 7 months, so he had a chance.
Those two losses still hurt. I still remember the due dates.
Miscarriages are the terrifying fact of life that nobody bothers to tell you about.