you are not alone. am much like you, Tired anon. it is a tiring road. raising children isn't easy in the best of circumstances, never mind this crazy whirlwind. hard to see, but things are improving, little by little. try every day to find something to be grateful for… miracle of children, strong arms for hugging them, some form of shelter and a bed to sleep in, tasty bit of food, favorite song on radio, gentle breeze or ray of sunshine… anything and every thing you can think of, no matter how small. focus on something positive. praying for you