I'm not Q, but my advice would be search for truth in your heart, open heart,…and you will find it. He will lead you.
Bzzz. Wrong.
GOD wants WORSHIP. IN A CHURCH. That's what Christ did. And then he setup his own Church, Last Supper, Eucharist, etc.
You absolutely need Church. And Confession. Jesus opened the door.
You need to find the door.