Everyone has Shit anon. I have tax liens, credit card debt all kinds of shit looming down upon my broke ass, a failing business. this place and Q give me hope. I feel you're let down but hope is small like a tiny light and you need to focus on that light. Life is a roller coaster sometimes its up sometimes it is down but the little things, like children, grand children, a significant other, pets, parents something non material is the key to life… look at what you HAVE. Not what you don't have. this is something to focus on and if it is bringing you down, get away from it and find the happiness you deserve. then come back. its okay to feel down but not okay to want death, we sometimes feel that way but death is up to God, not you…