Prayers for you anon.
For whatever it's worth, I lost my job and my house (and car and savings and everything), and life does goes on. I'm not actually less happy or content than I was, except when I am resentful about the changes. And in many ways I'm more free, more my own person, less controlled, less compromised.
I hope you get some big miracles and blessings soon. But just keep this in mind too - the constant fear and anxiety about it happening is more damaging than actually having to live through it. I can even imagine a time in the future when I'll be glad it happened. Because I'll be a better stronger person, and got the rare chance to entirely re-create my life to be much more fulfilling, healthy, sustainable, and congruent with my values.
God bless.
<Life is not what happens to you, but the kind of person you become
>We humans make plans, but the LORD has the final word… The LORD has a reason for everything he does… It's better to be honest and poor than to be dishonest and rich… We make our own plans, but the LORD decides where we will go.
https://biblehub.com/cev/proverbs/16.htm