MY LETTER TO MY MOTHER (almost word for word)

Hmm, this is a bit unexpected. But hey, I'm shocked and surprised on an hourly basis these days.

I was under the impression you had become aware of some of the things I've only recently become aware of. But every day I learn how I'm wrong about things, while still becoming increasingly aware that I have to trust myself. When you see enough things that add up to only one answer, they become mathematically overwhelming and impossible to ignore. I'm still a man of science, logic and reason, even while I now understand that everything I once believed was wrong. Up is down, left is right. Think mirror.

Oh and never feel any pressure to answer my super long messages promptly or at all. And I truly mean that. Even when I'm inclined to answer yours quickly. I'll have days when I can't reply for a long while either, so I really don't take it personally if you don't reply.

I'm told I shouldn't try to awaken anyone who isn't ready. But I thought you were years and years ahead of me on all this, but maybe I was wrong about that too! That's not new! ;-) Or maybe you really are ahead of me still. Anyhow, I want to share so much of what I've discovered, because it's all so shocking, fascinating and incredible, and you are somehow connected to it all, but maybe I'm supposed to only use the same method that reached me – the socratic method – as maybe that's the only method that really works. It starts as a game, like a puzzle. And each of us makes our own connections through all the "coincidences" of our life, until we connect enough dots to start to form a picture. The picture is fuzzy and really, really big, so you can never see it all at once, but it eventually forms an impression in your mind and you're changed for it. I'll say it again: I remain a man of science, logic and reason. Logic and reason are the tools I used to arrive at my "conclusions," or theories or ideas about what's happening. Hey, I was the consummate atheist only two or three years ago, and had been my whole life, with a bookshelf full of Richard Dawkins and Sam Harris. Grandma and I always had that in common. I'm the LAST person on earth I ever thought would have a spiritual awakening, or who would ever be relating such things. But shit happens, apparently.

Your insight about the definition of "cult" is eye opening, as it was one of the questions put to me and I've been seeking an answer. I'm going to meditate on it more. There's something in what you said.

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>>8119087

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As for some thoughts that you might meditate upon, but which don't require an answer, I'll give it a try. I'm new at this and maybe I'm not even supposed to be doing it, but I'm learning just to trust that we never really do anything "wrong" when we do it with love. There is no "wrong" when it's all already written. There is maybe only one choice though: to love or not to love, and that is the ultimate choice with the ultimate consequence. I'm told "we are watching a movie." I didn't understand it for a couple of years, and then I did. Or at least maybe I've started to.

Did I mention this is a game that's not a game? It's a puzzle which is only solved by someone who seeks. There is no compulsion to solve it. God doesn't demand that. I'm compelled to try to learn it now though, because I'm a man of science, and I can't ignore such a profound conundrum.

I did not believe in "Jesus" until about two months ago. I did not believe in The One, even while I had already totally shocked myself by discovering that "God" is a real and intelligent being of love – and I'm honestly more shocked than anyone. Up until a couple months ago, I still thought Jesus was a fiction for the frightened and uninformed to make sense of this confounding reality. Or worse, a deception to lead good people to do bad things (ie., satanic). But what would life be like if you stopped learning or discovering? What would life be like if the earthly knowledge we cling to wasn't suscenptible to being proven wrong? Boring that's what! :) I've decided that if I wasn't willing to let go of an idea that I thought was a certainty and completely change my mind about it, then I'm not really living. No one likes to be wrong, and maybe my biggest discovery is that I'm almost always wrong.

Hey, this email is turning into a book. Maybe the only thing that will keep you reading to this point is the question, "has my lost boy lost his mind?" I haven't. I'm not on any medication – like, none. I'm happy and healthy, though a little overwhelmed by the recent discoveries. J loves me and understands what I'm doing, and comes along for the ride even though he's not so driven to pursue these things.

I've been on a path that began three years ago, which compelled me to study the details of the map as each twist and turn was revealed. I didn't know where it was leading. I only had ideas and theories which led me to the next fork in the road. Ironically, at each fork I only realized I was on a new part of the map and that the theory that led me there was TOTALLY wrong. So it's like building a temple, stone by stone, and then realizing it's fatally flawed, so so you tear it all down again and start over, but you build a stronger one this time. I'll be tearing it down and starting again tomorrow, I bet, but hopefully I'll know more. I've concluded truth isn't a destination in this life, it's only a journey. The ultimate journey. It's what I was born to do. I'm a messenger for myself alone, maybe.

Before I pose a question that may or may not be worth considering, I'll just tell you a bit of how I see the Jesus story now. I still resist the name "Jesus" a bit, because of the "ick" factor. It reminds me so much of all those deluded, glassy-eyed university students who tried to convince the 18-year old me that my only salvation was in Christ. (Barf!) Or worse yet, the absurd paintings of an insipid smiling hippie with blood running down his forehead. (By the way there are no extant images of Jesus being crucified until the 3rd Century AD, which makes me doubt that happened the way they say, except metaphorically, or maybe even futuristically, but who knows.) So The One that I have come to believe in (and all this is subject to change tomorrow) does not want to be worshipped. He is a man in this incarnation (yes he has a dick, we will get to that) who simply has a job to do. A destiny no different than any other human being's destiny, and someone who cannot accomplish any of that without all the contributions, sacrifices and destinies of every other human being on the planet. In that respect, he's no important than any other. He is famous because he has such an "obvious" role to fulfill, but what everyone misses is that his role couldn't ever be accomplished without his parents, his true love, his family, his president, his teachers, his allies, his protectors, even his enemies. The nature of reality is nothing like the Bible, even though there is truth in the Bible, just as there is truth in the story of Thor and Odin. Explaining quantum physics to the world over millenia only worked with metaphor, I think. The ancients knew about quantum physics (cf. The Great Pyramid…built on the princple of phi).

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>>8119099

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Why does Jesus (or Horus or Thor or Quetzalcoatl) have to have a dick? I don't know! But apparently he does, though he incorporates the divine feminine and divine masculine in one incarnation. All is frequency. Fact (so says quantum physics): time is frequency. Matter is frequency. Gravity is frequency (think "waves"). And, yes, even gender is frequency. The ancients knew this. And many powerful people today use this ancient secret to their advantage too. There is a frequency called "the divine feminine" and the "divine masculine," and it's a secret to all existence somehow. Our conceptions of gender are metaphors, too, and they are represented in many forms all around us. Dark and light. Yin and yang. The rod and the ring. The absence and the presence. Destruction and creation. The "In" and the "Out." The 1 and the 0 (of binary code) – a crude computer language which is able to build the most complicated infrastructure of our planet with nothing but the symbols for ON and OFF (in other words, with existence and absence). Have a look at the power symbol on your television set or computer monitor. Do you see the rod and the ring? Do you think it's a coincidence that the power symbol has been adopted worldwide? (Hint: it's not a coincidence, I was very very surprised, myself.) The divine masculine and divine feminine are frequencies and ancient, esoteric clues to the secrets of power. The Queen holds the scepter (the phallus) and the sphere (the ring). The Washington capital is laid out in strict accordance with ancient sacred geometry (look at the DC map) where the monument (the phallus) is perfectly lined up with the dome of the capital (the "womb" or "vagina" – I don't really know what the right word is for the seat of creation which is in fact emptiness – I've never really concerned myself with such things). You really have to ask why they transported a bloody huge ancient Egyptian granite cock and erected it in the political power centre of the planet.

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>>8119099

…cont'd from above…

Why does Jesus (or Horus or Thor or Quetzalcoatl) have to have a dick? I don't know! But apparently he does, though he incorporates the divine feminine and divine masculine in one incarnation. All is frequency. Fact (so says quantum physics): time is frequency. Matter is frequency. Gravity is frequency (think "waves"). And, yes, even gender is frequency. The ancients knew this. And many powerful people today use this ancient secret to their advantage too. There is a frequency called "the divine feminine" and the "divine masculine," and it's a secret to all existence somehow. Our conceptions of gender are metaphors, too, and they are represented in many forms all around us. Dark and light. Yin and yang. The rod and the ring. The absence and the presence. Destruction and creation. The "In" and the "Out." The 1 and the 0 (of binary code) – a crude computer language which is able to build the most complicated infrastructure of our planet with nothing but the symbols for ON and OFF (in other words, with existence and absence). Have a look at the power symbol on your television set or computer monitor. Do you see the rod and the ring? Do you think it's a coincidence that the power symbol has been adopted worldwide? (Hint: it's not a coincidence, I was very very surprised, myself.) The divine masculine and divine feminine are frequencies and ancient, esoteric clues to the secrets of power. The Queen holds the scepter (the phallus) and the sphere (the ring). The Washington capital is laid out in strict accordance with ancient sacred geometry (look at the DC map) where the monument (the phallus) is perfectly lined up with the dome of the capital (the "womb" or "vagina" – I don't really know what the right word is for the seat of creation which is in fact emptiness – I've never really concerned myself with such things). You really have to ask why they transported a bloody huge ancient Egyptian granite cock and erected it in the political power centre of the planet.

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>>8119125

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Why is The One a thing? I don't know. But it is. Just like the laws of quantum physics. This universe is bound by laws. God wrote those laws, which we might call physics, and they govern this reality, and we can't break them, though we seek to understand them. In this reality there is light and dark, and good and evil: frequencies. And they are in constant pull and pull, forever through eternity. Human consciousness, as incarnated sparks of God (souls) are destined to play some part in this battle, just like a really good movie (by the way, we really are watching a movie – Stephen Hawking said as much in the last phsyics paper he published before his death, "A Smooth Exit From External Inflation," in which he said: "hence we use HOLOGRAPHY to excise the bulk regime of external inflation." That's the gist of his paper which prompted the media to paraphrase his words as "We live inside The Matrix." So it seems we do! And just like The Matrix, there is a One. It's a weird rule written into th code of reality. Just like The One – a frequency represented by a man who brings things back into balance, like the turn of the season – a cycle that repeats over and over again for eternity. We've already done all this before. It really bakes the noodle.

At this point, I'm sure I've lost you and you're "concerned." but I didn't write Stephen Hawking's paper, or the ancient manuscripts re-telling the story of Odin and Thor. I'm just connecting the dots. As my teacher said to me, "The deeper we go, the more unrealistic it all becomes. The end won't be for everyone. That choice, to know, will be yours."

I am compelled to write all this down for you because you're you. I have no idea if it will reach you or not and it doesn't have to. Something big is coming, though, while I don't exactly know what it is. And God is love. It's really instructive to watch a few movies. Like The Matrix (a documentary essentially – while still metaphor). Or Donnie Darko, though that film is extremely unsettling – you might enjoy the allusions to Nordic mythoology in it. Somebody in Hollywood seems to know a lot more than we do, and you gotta ask why they bother! (They expend A LOT of energy and resources re-telling these stories, and it's not only for profit.)

But here I started by saying that the only way to reach anyone is through the socratic method of asking questions, and instead I wrote a treatise. Forgive me if it's all overwhelming. Again, there is no need to answer any of this, or even read it all. I probably wrote it down for myself more than anything else. I probably should have written a much shorter email with nothing but a single question:

"Who the hell is Qanon?"

All my love, imperfect as it is. Ignore any typos above. I never proofread anything. :-)

xoxo (dammit! There it is again: the "+ cross" represents the divine masculine phallus; the "O" represents…well you get the idea – it's endless).

Your Son

P.S. attached picture is related

>>8119188

Thanks whoever you are. I'm impressed anyone read it. I don't really know why I posted it.

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LET'S TEACH OUR CHILDREN THE FOLLOWING WAY OF LIFE:

• DNC

• PEDOWOOD

• SPIRIT COOKING

• TRANNY READING HOUR

• FAMILY BAD DRUGS AND SEX GOOD

OR TRY QANON WHAT DO I KNOW YOUR CALL

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