I wonder about how much of the hell the Q team has seen, seeing as how they have access to it all.
I never wanted to see some of the things I experienced online, I was hoping the world was better.
The way I dealt with it is just doing everything to never see more of the degeneracy, as it will unfortunately damage possible ways of thinking, and yes it is extremely hurtful to know the damage out there in the world.
I know these people are doing something wrong, but why is a question I only have theories about, no real answers, because I can not relate and I have no real world reference to.
I think that it is all forced on people through religious practices, such as circumcision and that humans try to deal with it in a wrong way, even furthering the degeneracy, this is by design, and can be escaped through meditation, knowing that you only need time to think, and that everything else is either a distraction or a disturbance.
Eventually you will be able to think beyond the horrors, but it will take time.