When the realization of pizza language evil and scope hit me, and I visualized through a child's eyes the video on Weiner's laptop, I cried and could not sleep for a long time. It reminded me of the Bible where it took a long time for an angel to arrive due to the sheer amount of evil in the way. Now, sometimes praying helps me keep going. Then some days, this works: "I won't let that Kenyan fag beat me today."