To be honest anon I have wondered the same. But then is it PTSD or just a jarring psycological experience, I don't know. I suppose labels don't really matter. Somedays I have felt I could do it all others I have just sat and stared at timestamps etc into the wee hours. Mental accuity swings between "Thats actually pretty good" and "Am I actually retarded?".
We just need to keep the mental balance, take a break (if possible). No anon is an island - we are not alone here. Let your fellow anons take the load for a while. We are all here for the same reason - to help in anyway we can to take down these sick inbred fuckers. How can we do that if we are taking ourselves out of the game? Take a step back, read a book, take in some nature etc etc.
How far have we come anon. What is being done here, how many children are we fighting for and what are we fighting against. We are not one anon, we are qanon. We go together, we help each other, N1LB.