Q…. Even my sister Opp was in on it wasn't she?

I either have gone completely insane or following my research of codes and winks what can I make of all the things I know of her. All the bad things that always came from her actions and how much malice she gave in return to people who always tried to help her. All the things she knew that she shouldn't have been able to know, and more obviously I suppose the fact that she worked for Obama in DC for a while last year …. well…. I'm in a state of shock from realizing that wasn't just a coincidence.

I want Q to tell me I'm insane or delusional or confirm this. No matter what he says I won't do anything obviously to them or anyone else obviously, but it would help me understand if I've finally expanded my thinking too far or not. Tying her and others to all the people I've known in my life that killed themselves including my attempts, all the bad stuff, how could anyone ever win against that? Now that I understand what I think is the scope of it I'm shaking.. actually shaking realizing just how horrible the world was. I thought I had seen darkness and I certainly did nearly die a bunch but I only saw a shadow of it. A shadow that tormented me but it was only a shadow of the grotesque husk I now recognize everywhere. Taking everything and giving only misery and death in return.

And this is why we were cursed… I get it, now that I have researched codes to the point where I recognize my sister as being in on it.

This is why she was so disturbed by my Grandmother's death and also was such a UFO nut and sent me shoes to keep the aliens from taking me away because that's just a lie they use to avoid eyes while the corrupt people.

And it's why she was so adamant about the name my father chose for her.

Louise and University of Louisiana…. from grandmother to granddaughter… and when my grandfather divorced her the cult cursed his children. That's when everything screwed up….

So this is my relationship to the cult. And why after my father died by her I'll wager - then the military ended my grandmother for this action. This is why we are safe because if the cult kills one of us they die.

I see… it all adds up for me now. As scary as it is I at least understand my own life for the first time. I post this here because it is Qresearch and terrifying to me. I think I finally see the edges of the puzzle- the distant shape we will be shown of what the world is. I was missing a few corner pieces and I was so mixed up I almost contacted my sister, yes the same one, to try and wake her up. I'm very glad I didn't do that.