Anon, I've had the same feelings on-and-off since 2017. I've got theories, but no solid answers as to "Why?." All I'm here to say is that accepting that this Plan is happening this way whether I agree with it or not has helped me out. Just like we didn't anticipate "Q" being a thing in October 2017 while digging into the Las Vegas attack, there's probably something here we're not anticipating either.