what about all the years before Q, wasted on being in misery that the world was so fucked and not understanding why, just feeling pain, anger and frustration at watching it happen and not being able to do anything an then just trying to retreat from it all. The time spent with Q has at least helped me to understand why the world is so fucked and what has caused it. I can't say I have done anything major other than try to learn.
Perhaps having made some influence on others hopefully in a positive way. I hope and pray for the best for all good men and women in this world.