If you have a library card, borrow & watch a movie, "Pursuit of Happyness." That "Y" in "happyness" isn't a typo; that's the actual spelling of the title, and it's also a minor plot device in the movie itself.
It's based on a true story (which means Hollywierd messed with the facts to present a story), about a guy who went through something very similar to what you're going through.
Sometimes misery loves company (currently prohibited due to coronascam); and sometimes it can help to know others have trod a path similar to yours and prevailed.