You are participating in the other reality, go back to your evil one….and tell them all to fuck off…
Leave …its your only way out. Do not give in to their fucking guilt and you don't have to go to reconciliation and admit your "sins" to someone who doesn't probably even know you….
The "Church" is not what you think it is…..though they tell us that the RC Church wa the one that Peter Built, its not true, wherever you are with prayer, mediation or talking to God is where God is.