I will say one thing, and don't expect further replies from my ID:
It has been an ongoing challenge to RECONCILE personal subjective experiences touching/experiencing the creator's divine energy and KNOWING it is true, versus what books and religions and sincere people attempting to decode the Bible teach. Because there is truth in both. But if you cross that line and tell God-loving sincere Bible-reading people what you experienced – or tell the experiential people what you read/studied/learned from the Bible, people get mad, because sometimes their concepts are limited to a narrow box.
You can't put God into a box. God is infinite and outside of time. To understand or even simply touch God without "understanding", you have to shed the conceptual box and expand your thinking.
I have been seeking that reconciliation for a LONG time. Anon simply lets the two points of view coexist with the understanding that they are not really two different things, and there's no point in arguing with someone who hasn't experienced that.