Dear Q,

You say you see all. I have ptsd. I do not work. I do not do food stamps or any kind of govt help. I was falling thru the cracks n became homeless and ended up living out in nature. I chopped wood for heat n to cook with, hauled water, had dirt floors, etc. I don't have family here or a lot of support. I ended in SD, on an indian reservation. I was Invited here by a Lakota. Had no idea where I was going but I was out in nature, surviving. I am non Native. I am in a checkerboard county. I am under the Sheriff's jurisdiction, not tribal police. Next town over, outside of the rez has life going on as if covid never happened. Then you come here and they have the whole thing on lock down. I have been waiting an entire week to get a pass so that I can leave to go to the grocery store in the next town over, because it has things this one doesn't. I cannot leave without a pass or I get $1000 fine and car impounded and a list of other things. (I borrow my old roommate's car to get there.) But now they just added curfew from 8pm to 6am. The vet is outside the rez and I have an old dog that sometimes i need to take at a moment's notice. I can't be waiting weeks for these people to give me permission. I called the Governors office on Friday morning. The woman I spoke to just said someone from tribal relations would call me. Tuesday morning I still had not heard anything (or received a pass from the tribe to be able to leave) and so i called Governor's office and I spoke to the same lady but this time she had information and she said their office had been working with the tribe and the BIA to try to resolve this check point issue. But now today, we have this curfew from 8pm to 6am. My old roommate (full blood lakota) said they are following China's guidelines, not the us govt because "we have a bad history with the us govt and we don't trust them." (So they trust China.. wtf?) He said they have been told if the virus gets on the rez 70% of the people will die. I have another lakota friend working the border on the reservation. He said he has a job doing that until JULY. Then the lakota guy at the store enforcing the masks and the 10 people at a time thing said the police chief (tribal) said he will be there permanently. I'm trying to move. I was supposed to move 2 months ago with a friend who was helping me but then this covid thing happened and now I have no idea what's going on. I do believe God answers ALL prayers but right now I don't have the faith that I need to get past this shit I am in. I'm a woman. I'm just a girl. I'm strong af but please make them stop. If they try to force vaccines, i have no place to go and they get to decode if u can leave here n come back or not. I have ptsd. No family support, no nothing. I have friends but they don't understand what's going on. Dear Q, I am scared. I know all I can do is have faith n trust God, but I'm scared. I just watched them trap me with no way out. I am non native. The US Constitution applies to me. Please help us. Thank you.