Dear Patriots,
I need your help. I’ve been on this journey with you since October 2017. It has taken me this long to finally get the courage to ask for your help.
In 1994, my sister and I started recovering memories of ritual abuse by our parents. First, I encountered body memories which proceeded the actual memories coming out. I have never had memories recovered by therapists. I have gone to about 12 different therapists to learn how to deal with the symptoms of PTSD, but never to have them access repressed memories. My sister has never gone to a therapist. We believed that our parents had been involved in some sort of sick cult. My father had a prominent position in the LDS Mormon church, at the time of a lot of my memories when we lived in the Avenues of Salt Lake City. We chose to leave the family along with another sister who believed us, but didn’t have any of her own memories.
Ten years, later, I felt such a strong urge to contact one of my sisters (my twin sister) because I loved her and missed her. I wanted to start a relationship with her, but not with anyone else in my family. I reached out to her and she immediately gave my contact information to the rest of the family. They all tried to reach out to me “with open arms”. I told all of them about what I had remembered. I lost the support of the two sisters who had originally left with me, because they didn’t want me to contact my family. They were scared of them.
My father tried to contact my church authorities to get me under control, but I wouldn’t allow it. Finally, my father gave them all an ultimatum, that they would have to choose between having a relationship with me, or with him. They all chose him. He was telling them that he was going to sue me for defamation. I ended everything with all of them.
Up until “Pizzagate” broke out, I thought this kind of sick abuse was limited to a few bad people. I had never considered that the Mormon church was into this kind of ritual abuse, I had thought only about my family. Then a few years ago, I was contacted by two nieces and a nephew. My father had died in 2015, and they had ritual abuse/child trafficking memories surface after seeing him in his casket. They were remembering prominent people in their town as well as General Authorities. Their own children were disclosing to them how they had been abused my their grandmother, my sister. One of them had a therapist who asked if anyone in the family had ever talked about this. The only thing they could think of was that one crazy aunt (Me) their mother had warned them to stay away from.
Because their children are under age, their therapist told them to contact child services. They made a report, but were told “your children are deeply disturbed, have you been making them watch violent movies?” It went nowhere. Their therapist was beginning to start a private support group for survivors of ritual abuse on Facebook. It definitely didn’t last long. My sister decided to sue her children for defamation and was going after their therapist too.
The next thing I hear is that there is a documentary team who wants to research ritual abuse in the Mormon church, and they want to interview me. They are particularly interested in the multi-generational experiences of my family. They asked, before they began the documentary, to talk to Homeland Security because of the age of my nieces/nephews’ children. There are two Homeland Security agents looking into this, but they are getting pushback from the Utah office. I went to interview for this documentary and met a woman who is the widow of a former Utah congressman. She let me know that she has been contacted by over 1000 victims from Utah, and surrounding areas, including Alberta Canada. (Both of my parents were born in Alberta Canada). When I brought up Pedogate, non of them seemed to have heard of it, except that they thought it was a joke. One of the Homeland Security agents was there, and he hadn’t heard about any of it.
I don’t know who, in the government, to trust. I am scared and worried about my nieces and nephew as well as their children. My sister, their mother, seems to have some money behind her lawsuit. Please, Patriots, help us, if anyone can, you can.