>This place fucks you up, I dunno how to go back to normal.
Expand your thinking, anon. You are now free from the "mental sickness" described and foretold in Aldous Huxley's Brave New World, a book written in 1932 about the world we live in today where social engineering has created a population of passive servants for the corporate elite.
“The real hopeless victims of mental illness [will] be found among those who appear to be most normal…They are "normal" not in.. the absolute sense of the word; [but] normal only in relation to a profoundly abnormal society. Their perfect adjustment to that abnormal society [will be] a measure of their true mental sickness."