Please don't do it Fren. I was where you are many years ago and I came very close to following through. Thank God I didn't. It was't until I was in my 30s that I finally found my purpose. Please don't give up!!!
We are all here with you. You are not alone. Lay your problems at the feet of the Lord and trust that all will be ok.
We are currently immersed in such intense darkness. Dig Deep Fren…the light is reaching toward you. Follow it and tell the darkness to get the fuck away from you.