Ride out this storm anon. I know exactly how you feel. I've been "alone" and depressed for many years now ever since I started this quest. It'll get better.
Take a break from all forms of digital media. Sometimes viewing the world through this scope can be very damaging.
Ride this one out with us anon. Fight the pain. I know it can be down right exhausting. You're not alone in this. I promise you that.
Anon, I haven't been able to communicate truthfully with any of my friends or family members. I've even became secluded in most cases. Currently I'm jobless, my future has no prospects at this very moment in time. And I don't think me or you are the only ones that are going through this motion right now.
Ride this one out. Don't cave in to your emotions.
Take a break if you have to. I know how meaningless everything else in the world seems to feel like.
Keep fighting anon. Keep fighting. You're not alone in this.
Godspeed.