>>9134141 lb
Know where you are coming from anon. All too well.
But, since you didn't create yourself what right do you have to destroy what isn't yours?
Sounds like you are caught up in what the world believes while not realizing you are in this world but not of it. Perhaps someone paid a great price for you to be here, especially now at this time. Perhaps you will help many adjust in this great transition.
My advice, look deeply into the void within and find out who you are not. For, a man must die in order to be born so that he may live. But first, in order to die he must awake.
Maybe you first need to learn to "die" to your projections? Hmmm?
You have more than you know. Look into it.
~Peace