Q hasn't gotten my hopes up and crashed them down, but that explains your pissy attitude.
Your hopes shouldn't be riding on an internet alphabet letter.
My life has changed infinitely for the better, personally.
I'm happier, richer, healthier, and dare I even say, wiser.
Maybe YOU'RE hooked, and that's your problem, learn to deal with your behavior.
If MK Ultra has led me to become a better, more selfless Christian in my society, then so be it.