"Go get that money back from your wife, then go pound sand."
>very soothing and meditative
Maybe join a spa if that is for what you seek?
However, if you are sincerely seeking the Truth, keep seeking in the Scriptures, prayerfully. His full Counsel will teach you what is of the Doctrine of God and what is not. This way you will have a foundation by which you may judge any church organization's veracity, though be aware that none are perfect even among the genuine ones. It is unreasonable to expect perfection of any genuine congregation.
The oldest church organizations have long had elements of Mystery Cultism (notably the Harlot), and the modern larger organizations have long been infiltrated by Marxists and Jesuits, daughters of the Harlot, the Mystery Cult, the mother with the "traditional litany and traditional music" that sooth and put one in a trance to be deceived.