Hang in there anon. You're on a path to learning more patience. It ain't easy. I've been there! Reminding myself that my beautiful family and friends are spellbound. Still it hurts when they completely disregard me or even turn on me, and I have also reacted with impulsive anger, and regretted it. I believe it will all sort itself out when the difficult truths come to light. Stay the course, fren.