>>9480770 (pb)

Thanks anon

Ngl dont matter if q a larp or any of that at this point. Wish i had the dream post to link to...

Being young and "damn evil george bush did 911 and heckin republicans..fricken god isnt real" pseudo-intellectual shit i was fed and being like that for a while

After i had my first son, i felt the spirit coming back.

I was never a fan of charlatans and sycophants in the church

But there definitely was a lingery feeling yeah

After my second son i shamefully didnt have the same joy or anything that i had the first time. Sometimes even now and my time with them embarrassingly enough..

But idk when it happened

Maybe late last year

I was already at like year 5 of understanding (not just knowing) creation and evolution arent mutually exclusive and pissed people cant see beyond either thought process and i just...clicked on or something idk.

Activated wouldnt be the more accurate term because of mkultra implications but...i was definitely uplifted in a way. I left my job that paid great and kick ass benefits literally no company provides. Tired of not spending enough time with the kids. Month or so later corona a big deal then the shutdown. At this point i already had time to wind down my mind and think about what matters more and all that. Blessed for sure. But too much time got me on that whole "damn all these coincidence like why tf am i special here" type thing. Especially when i thought of past happenings. Like why the secret service take me out of class when im like 16 to ask about some counterfit money? I just (allegedly) smoke a bit of weed here and there. Reports i was not only distributing but actually being the one to somehow have all the shit to do it. I aint even have a vehicle. That shit dont happen to randos man. Whole thing was off.

And

Btw

There wasnt even anyone doing any of that in my town. Let alone [reason given]

Anyway ever since the "pAnDeMiC" ive gotten the comfiest ive been in a while. Beyond necessary. Beyond "q said" anything. Shits very weird times and while clown world has limitless possibilities thats also kinda the problem. Now all are thrown together hastily at one time. I dont like it. So for the first time in many years i chilled on trolling chilled on being an asshole and really wanting to help peoples minds accept realities they may not have considered. As opposed to "faggot what are stupid or something open your eyes moron"

Something definitely changed in me bro. Thats why this shit even scarier.

>>9481200

Absolutely not. All this choose sides talk is some nonsense. Look we got free will right and meme magic works..that isnt just another meme. Imagine a mass collective "go fuck yourself" to literally all of these "sides" theyre telling us to choose. Good guy bad guy shit yin and yang man.

The circle holds the pieces together. We gotta get outside that because "either" way is still not allowing -us- a choice. And I can say all the good shit about trump and bad about deep state nonsense but either the government wins or the government wins

How is that a choice -i- am actually getting to make?

Damn Q…

You really telling people to trust the plan huh…my problem here is that "the plan" "their plan" "trumps plan" any of them

I thought earlier maybe itll be faked maybe crisis actor situation.

Thats not it is it?

Potus is a sacrifice

>>9481262

How is that a killjoy? Our choices are engineered outcomes or we choose our own fates. Why would i want an engineered one? Everybody on this duality pick a side shit also not exerting free will and are exerting, in essence, an ultimatum. I wait till the end too but my minds still made up on me choosing my own destiny and outside the realm of left and right idiocy (inb4 lolbertarian or anything. Im just very "question everything" "why")

Not allowing control of decisions and fate and all that other shit is the ultimate and only true freedom we can ever have. Imo.