You're not alone, friend.
My late dad was AF & came out of service okay (was on a SAC base in the middle of nowhere) but I worry so much about vets who didn't come back from their duty okay.
I know you guys have seen and done and learned things that civilians can never know and never understand.
We know that life is hard in a trillion different ways for all of you. Trump and so many others sincerely want to help.
I hope you have a person in your life who truly cares about you and will listen to you. Talk to them. And be kind to yourself, gentle on your mind and physical health. You need to love yourself, man, because you're really fantastic for making it this far. You're worth it.
I know some don't believe prayer does anything, but I do. And I'm going to pray for you, PTSDanon.
Heavenly Father, please bless this anon with pain and struggles he copes with in his life. I ask you to wrap Your arms around him and heal his mind and soul so he can be whole again. In Jesus' name I pray for PTSDanon's complete healing. Amen.