it's a movie… let's see how it plays out.
dont' sweat it anon… i do the same.
whenever is get "lost" i have to remind myself that this is being played out by people far smarter than I am… and that everything is "essentially" done already (future proves past, etc.)… and then i relax.
family a friends get worked up about "whatever" is said by the talking heads… i make them crazy by saying "already done, going down, ignore it".
i suspect we'll all be shocked in the end about who is good/bad… (and we're in here getting prepared mentally through the research!… and it's still going to blow our minds)
love it!