Q, I just can't keep waiting at this point. Everyone or thing I trust in betrays me or fails. I haven't been able to find work in months. Overqualified to even work at a gas station or deliver pizzas. I trusted in a GCR for a long time because to this. My family left me.
I have nothing, anon! I've never been let down this much in my life. Nothing wrong with a few bumps in the road but everything's gone off the deep end. Prayer has gotten me no where. I'm seeing complete douchebags win & win big while I go out of my way to be lower than meek and I end of with the short stick. Every time. Mother of my kids is extorting me. If I kill myself, they'll get the life insurance that was intended for them. I just can't continue to pay it and I'll lose it all.
I've been so tired lately. I always pray before bed just to not wake up the next day.
How many clocks need to start before something happens? I'm not one to sit and start while booms happen. I try to live my life while the fight rages on but there's no life for me to live at this point.
One to two more days and that's it for me.