Anons…
This is the oyster fishing anon who sometimes posts in the morning.
I had a very bad evening. I fucked up. I’ve been in suboxone a few years, getting them from a friend a steady consistent lower daily dose. However, something happened and I ran out I didn’t have any for tomorrow and I have to work tomorrow bringing work to 7 days this week. I’ll have probably 75-80 hours next Friday. I couldn’t afford to get sick on the job… so i went out and grabbed some Heroin.. just to hold me over. So i’m not sick tomorrow at work and i can get this load done with tomorrow.
So i scored… and I got 5 five bags, i fed a bum got him s blanket. Gave him a bag of dope. I really didn’t need to get that much but i caved into i may as well enjoy myself while i’m doing this. I sniffed 3 bags considering the Dope i used to was really weak.
I sniffed, then dropped the bum off and proceeded home. I remember pulling in front of my apartment building and that is it. I died. I was dead. I suddenly started waking up, coughing up fluid and barely able to breath they put me on oxygen while i sat there in my car. They were lime damn angels.
I’m so shocked anons. I’m so ashamed. Very ashamed. This police officer saved my life though. He was answering another call and he immediately stopped and noticed me slumped over the wheel.
I’m sorry anons… i’m sorry to that police officer.. i’m sorry to my family and to god. I just don’t know what to do anymore. My situation is highly fragile and I can’t afford to get the help need right now without taking off work and potentially losing apartment.
I’m asking for prayers and love anons… even if you think i’m some shitty druggie. I’ve never had this happen before. I’m absolutely shocked.
I don’t want to do shit like this. But getting sick is brutal especially when you work difficult labor.