>>9644605 lb

I weigh 400 lbs.

I need to deal with the reality that first off I have a family genetic disposition in which we develop and retain fat, even if we are athletically fit. Our family has a layer of fat that just stays there.

Second, because of me fighting being overweight my whole entire life, there are points in my life where I become depressed from the process.

Third, my mental illness (depression) has prolonged for so long now (along with my age) that I have reached the heaviest weight of my life, and exercise itself is starting to become hard. So, weightloss through diet becomes extremely important for me.

I hate exercise! I know I don't get enough!

These are all things that I know, and I am not stupid; my habits over the years are so strong, that I literally am an addict towards certain food and alcohol.

I've been praying.

I've been asking God to HELP ME!

I've even asked Anons to help pray for me!

And it hasn't happened yet.

Whatever fucking demon that has possessed my mind, I can't get rid of!

That's the only way that I can explain it, is that I have a strong demonic force that plagues me with this addiction and self-destruction.