"there is nothing more dangerous that a little bit of knowledge." add a heaping helping of imagination…
a wheel has the "mathematical concept of Pi encoded within it." that does NOT mean that the first caveman who made a wheel had any concept of Pi. HE just know that the damned thing rolled.
golly, not to diss Jesus or especially any of His fanatical adherents, but actually, until the field of psychoanalysis was co-opted and corrupted by the DS, transactional analysis, pioneered by Dr. Eric Berne and later carried on most notably by John Bradshaw and also M. Scott Peck, was exceptionally successful at explaining the roots of sexual dysphoria (deviance) and helping patients understand and overcome their emotional disorder and return to a happy healthy heterosexual state.
excuse me for being blunt, but why not GTFO? WTF is so important that you have to stay there? move to a rural location. you can be VERY rural and still within an hour of a major metro center.