We understand your doubts. We've had them as well.
But eventually Q provided enough verification that we began TRUSTING, but VERIFYING.
We continue to TRUST. We continue to VERIFY.
You'll get there. Your questions are legitimate because you are being pulled in two directions.
You will choose one or the other, eventually.
I highly recommend that you learn as much as you can, then CHOOSE your pill.
Be in control of that decision. Were you in control before you learned what you recently have learned? You thought so.
The past is comfy, but you'll be a slave.
The future is scary, but you'll be FREE.