TY ghosty baker
Really appreciate your efforts
No shit. I do.
You open up a very serious question anon. And a very personal question. What you have to embark upon is a path of learning. All the while guarding yourself. Because you will be attacked on every front as you advance in your knowledge. Some of the best advice I ever got was to guard my thoughts. Satan can literally worm his way into your mind. You must guard your thoughts. Like a radio transmitter that is scrambled. You have to teach yourself the disipline of changing your thoughts to the mundane. I know. This sounds crazy. I'm sorry. But it is good advice.