I may get angry and vent, but I refuse to whine in [their] hearing.
"I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo.
"So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." - Tolkien
Anon, there is no "believe in God again".
That is an impossibility. Scripture says once someone truly believes in God, they will never depart from Him again. If they say they believe but then depart, Scripture says they never truly believed in Him in the first place. I pray you truly find Him.
"They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us."