Anons, I have been fighting alongside you since Q day 1. I have lost hope in this world but I cannot wait around for my faith in salvation through Jesus Christ to be taken from me. Q, I believe in you but I am terrified you will tell us my precious Bible and Jesus is part of the mind control. (I hear you say trust in “humanity”. I have not heard you say trust in Jesus.) I lost my hope in God once. I cannot allow it to happen again. I would rather die with my faith intact. I left my home and spouse yesterday to come to this hotel room. Very confused. I am depressed for many reasons. COVID destroyed my 30 year old business (and my retirement). I am a woman who has always been financially independent. My marriage is on the rocks. I don’t want to be a financial burden to my children or spouse. I am scared. I know my thoughts are selfish. I don’t want to hurt the ones I love. I cannot think of anyone that can help me but God or Q so please don’t tell me to call a hotline. I come to you anonymously and desperately pleading for prayer because I can’t ask anyone I know. Who would have ever thought I would find myself sitting in a hotel room on the Fourth of July staring at a gun.

I am sorry.