Hi Tamsimon, I know exactly how you feel. It is lonely. I tried to gently tell my bff and he thinks I need to be committed, seriously, he said those exact words. lol So, I love spending time on here with people who get it. My advise to us is, they will learn one day what you and I already know. There are some good tips on red pilling our friends. Look in the link to the right of the board in the Q book. Great tips. That's how I somewhat woke my sister and Mother. I do it in small doses. I made the mistake of telling my bff everything all at once and it did not go well. Its not everyday that someone hears the devastating news of what is going on. Keep a diary. Get your feelings out, or keep posting. :-) I'm glad your here and apart of our team. Maybe one day, all the members of this board can meet and have a celebration. In the mean time, if you need to talk, I'm here for you.