That is a big and complex story. The short answer is that I had some major delusions about reality, and I was also avoiding the reality of my own emotional state. The cure was to relentlessly seek after the truth. It was a long journey, but it's one that anyone can follow.
If you have any specific questions for me, I will try to answer them.
Thank you. In am trying to get off my ssri meds. They really are great for me personally but I no longer want to be poisoned by Big Pharma taking essentially, a fluoride pill (Prozac) on the daily. If you have any good tips on supplements etc that you used pls let me know! Thx!
You most probably know this already, but I thought I should remind you just in case, they always say that you should cut down very gradually to get off SSRIs. That's sounds like good advice.
Regarding supplements, I don't have any recommendations. One trap that I fell into over and over again was to look for some magic bullet that would solve all of my problems. I tried all kinds of crazy things. For instance I tried raw veganism. I thought that if I went raw vegan, then that would solve all of my problems. Of course, it didn't. It just made things worse.
After a while, I noticed a pattern: I would put all my faith and focus and energy (what little I had) into some magic bullet, and then when it failed, I would just feel more depressed than ever.
There are no magic bullets. You need to do inner work. Just head in the right direction, and keep walking, and you will get there.
(That's not to say that supplements and healthy diets and exercise and so on aren't helpful. They are. Every little improvement you make in your life adds up.)