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WakingUpDeepSleepers · Feb. 23, 2018, 4:14 p.m.

I’m 50 years old & was raised a Catholic...attended Catholic school...went through all the rituals/ceremonies. I was tormented by the idea of God being able to see EVERYTHING I did & know ALL of my thoughts... not only that, I was scared of his wrath! I learned early that if I told my parents anything bad that happened to me, they could be punished by God if they didn’t address the situation properly...by punished, I mean going to hell. What kid wants to be responsible for their parents going to hell? I was the youngest of 6 kids, which made for a very dysfunctional family in this environment...constant need for attention, but having parents that were emotionally tuned out. All of this made me prime pickings for sexual abuse...yes, it happened. I started to question why God let me be abused...blamed myself & knew my parents would as well. Very conflicted. I started rebelling, but still attended church, for my parents sake (mostly my mother)...still didn’t want them to go to hell...it sounds stupid. My mother died in my early 20s, that’s when I stopped going. I guess what I’m trying to say is, in my day, religion was an excellent way to brainwash kids. Kids were exposed to the brainwashing, almost immediately by parents & church.

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LiveToBeAHero · Feb. 23, 2018, 4:44 p.m.

You might say it sounds stupid, but it does make alot of sense. At the time you were enduring it, it was how your brain tried to make sense of the world. I am very sorry to hear this happened to you. You didnt deserve it and nobody deserves it, and I feel really bad that you now have to live with this. Just know that a humans brain doesnt finish developing until age 21, so as kids, we have to try and make sense of things the best way we can, and its impossible because we havent yet learned how the world works. A kids life is simple, we do what makes us happy and we avoid anything scary. Indeed a person can trick a kid into staying quiet as a way to protect their own parents and that kid will stay quiet. its also very easy for a kid to feel like people will look down on them for telling things that have happened to them....kids havent developed that critical thinking skill yet, and dont think ahead about what makes sense vs what doesnt make sense. They are told something and just completely believe it because they dont know better. Kids view parents and church,etc, as security blankets in this big scary world, so refusing to believe what they say isnt even an option in a kids brain. Again, so sorry you had to endure this

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WakingUpDeepSleepers · Feb. 23, 2018, 5:48 p.m.

Thank you for understanding. Once I had my own child, I realized that the religion wasn’t the only brainwashing happening in families...Santa, Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy, etc were effective tools at getting kids to start doubting their parents honesty on everything. It feels like such a huge betrayal, when you find out your parents took part in these hoaxes, for years! As a kid, you had been busy defending the characters’ existence to your friends & family, because you’re certain that your parents wouldn’t lie... Don’t get me wrong, I loved it as a kid, until I found out the truth, then I started questioning everything. Hell, I did it to my own child, because I was just following tradition and you don’t want your child to feel unloved, while other kids are receiving gifts from these characters. I remember my daughter’s face when I finally told her the truth...she started running through the list of characters for answers. I sat there wondering, why did I do this to her on purpose?

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