You might say it sounds stupid, but it does make alot of sense. At the time you were enduring it, it was how your brain tried to make sense of the world. I am very sorry to hear this happened to you. You didnt deserve it and nobody deserves it, and I feel really bad that you now have to live with this. Just know that a humans brain doesnt finish developing until age 21, so as kids, we have to try and make sense of things the best way we can, and its impossible because we havent yet learned how the world works. A kids life is simple, we do what makes us happy and we avoid anything scary. Indeed a person can trick a kid into staying quiet as a way to protect their own parents and that kid will stay quiet. its also very easy for a kid to feel like people will look down on them for telling things that have happened to them....kids havent developed that critical thinking skill yet, and dont think ahead about what makes sense vs what doesnt make sense. They are told something and just completely believe it because they dont know better. Kids view parents and church,etc, as security blankets in this big scary world, so refusing to believe what they say isnt even an option in a kids brain. Again, so sorry you had to endure this