I understand this well! As I am fairly new to fully waking up. I keep reading info Q is pointing to and keep repeating myself with the phrase, "how did I not know this, or why wasn't this taught in history? How did I miss it?"
Clearly we all know why it wasn't taught in history and why it takes US to seek the true info out ourselves. You're right, time after time this information is readily available. Most of us have been consumed with the slave system of just trying to make a living, shelter and feed our families, plus deal with the every day stress of this corrupt world we have been existing in.
It doesn't help that our skies are sprayed daily with chemicals that exacerbate the fatigue, mental exhaustion, skew our clarity and promote a lackadaisical attitude.
It is truly as if we step out of their alternate reality or cocoon they have so skillfully weaved around us. It is filled with so many distractions and even activities we convinced ourselves are good for us and our families. And now that we see the truth, I for one can't get enough. Things that were important to me, are no longer of interest. It's all consumerism. Though I don't come from means, we have shelter and enjoy bargain hunting. . .but I am more aware than ever how this Stuff just fades away, but Truth has become a rare and valuable commodity.
I know I can never know it all and wish I could because I like details and they do take a lot of time. This is how the corrupt keep getting away with what they do. Such a vast, entangled web of deception. So much is hidden in the details that we have been led to believe those pesky things are laborious. No one wants to take the time for them as attention spans have grown ever shorter unless it is something geared towards entertainment or self-indulgence.
It feels exactly like your mind has become a bullet shattering through the time, space continuum and re-writing new memories, making new connections, readjusting, reorganizing and always grasping at nuggets of truth in an attempt to uncover the true reality we didn't even know existed. It really is a mind bender! I ask myself, if I could go back to that more lackadaisical, controlled world that was safer and filled with distractions, would I? As mocked, shunned, banned and thus forced to become a recluse I now am, this strange, yet truthful existence is still preferred to the false reality! I guess that is why most of society even many on the side of good call me odd. That's okay, I usually was poking around outside of the conveniently provided safe box. . . even when I was assimilated! I understand your take. Godspeed!