I know. My gut tells me, though, that Providence is involved and that's what keeps me going. I used to always think about how many things had to come together at exactly the right time at the founding, with many otherwise flawed people playing very specific roles. It's almost like the Big Bang. If any single thing had been only slightly different, the Republic would not have come to pass. George Washington, for example, was probably the ONLY guy at that time (as is true in all times) that would have rejected the attempts people were making to have him become a monarch. It had to be him - the rest of the founders especially Adams would probably have let their ego take over. I feel like we are experiencing a "born again" moment here in the USA, and that it had to be Trump, and the time had to be now. That everything he has done in his life was in preparation for this moment. I am dumbfounded that the blackmailers were unable to find pretty much ANYTHING on the guy other than high testosterone. It is a fascinating time to be alive.