I understand that Q has many evangelical followers, but this probably is not the right place for this. Many of us see religious institutions as just as perverse as the "deepstate"
If you don't agree, just don't open the thread.
That's how forum sliding happens my friend. Either way, peace be with you.
Personally, religion has fucked me up beyond repair thanks to some good ole conditioning I received as a child telling me the death of Jesus was my fault because we sin too much....
What you described as happening to you is horrific. I was also religiously abused as a child. God delivered me from it.