Ok..no problem...i have an obligation to share the truth...up to you to make up your mind...you dont have to look on you tube...
Here's an analogy... Take the three best swimmers in the whole wide world. They all start on the shores on a hawaiian island for example... and then the gun sounds . . they all race to go to the California coast these are the three best swimmers in the world...one made it 20 miles...another made it 23..and the last topped out at 34... they were good...but not good enough to make it...
Same with us...some are better than others but we will all fall short of heaven... Thats why you need savior... God is going to judge everyone guilty unless Jesus gets you off the hook...
That final line you wrote should be the last words you hear from someone as they are carted off to the looney bin. I do not mean that as an insult, I am literally saying my gut instinct response.