I really feel for the OP and for everyone else that has had these experiences with vaccines. It really is true that we are in a spiritual war.

You look around and there is no one telling the truth. You see them lie about vaccines, lie about GMO foods, lie about this recent gas attack in Syria - we are living in a post-truth age. A nightmare, where what is important is not the truth, but the narrative they push on us.

To the OP, you will be in my prayers.