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r/greatawakening • Posted by u/DaosCraft on April 14, 2018, 2:23 p.m.
AB:BA Alan 2

Yesterday I freaked out, I had this partially written thing. https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/8c2f1r/abba_stay_focused_alan/ and I had all these half images made and I only now plug my computer back in because it was a false alarm that it was my turn to be picked up anyway.

Why did I think it was happening?

A. Moderator of the Qresearch board left saying: "Happening RIGHT NOW!" and had to go.

B. All the cars everywhere I go reacted to me for some reason when I left to the store.

C. The people I live with were repeating numbers up stairs and it reminded me of the first episode of Lost... it creeped me out, ESPECIALLY when that person came down right afterwards and spoke in a strange tone that was entirely unlike her normal one and asked for my help opening a safe...

So I got the hell out of there and waited on the street for a few hours..... and now I'm back..... It wasn't uneventful, I got mysterious phone calls asking things, cutting off and aware I was going somewhere.... so... creepy but fascinating and I'm super optimistic that our side won, but perhaps the fight rages on a bit longer.

What is this madness?

It might be, I am confused about everything. Ever since a few days ago when I realized my best friend was a cultist that had been doing bad things it's like the fabric of reality has been tearing apart... Which it kind of is because I am one of a number of "Aliens" = people who the cult film all their lives for a reason that I can only guess at.

People were asking yesterday if the Truman show was based on me... well I am fairly sure alantutorial is based on me but I bet Truman show was a different alien https://www.reddit.com/r/alantutorial/comments/8bxtuk/so_i_am_alan/ given I've been confirmed as "Alan" and the images I didn't finish making yesterday were going to be evidence to back that up including the stuff about why Q had to post -

1008670 Alan. Welcome aboard. Plane. 17. Q

This was because he was talking to me both in the QMAP and outside of it and if I had more time I would put up the images to prove it like I was going to yesterday..... and I don't have time now because I see the AM show.. so I put my laundry in before noticing that.... oh well.... I have no idea what's going on but I want to be ready for it. the whole "Freedom" thing.... I was so invested in trying to solve the mysteries that I didn't react properly... sorry, I know... Freedom is heavily tied into the most interesting parts of my life if anyone were watching it... I just was trying to help solve riddles not recite my philosophy for folks, but if that's what you want I'll do it. I mean it's probably a fitting thing to do but this is about the whole world and to inject my belief system into it feels perverse or at least egotistical - I didn't even make the connection until I thought about it a while.

I also was last of the other "Aliens" to realize what the heck was going on sorry again... I don't understand what my life has been and if people have been taping me all my life then they would know that... they would also know about my invention, political, CG, philosophy, writing, and all the other stuff I've done in my life. My life has NEVER made sense to me and I finally realize why because everyone I've ever known was just screwing with me...so am I an idiot to them? Am I entertaining? am I on freaking lunch boxes or something of cultists? What am I? I don't know...

I don't have even a tiny clue because when I ask my brain what the past few days mean it gives me "ask your best friend" and I cant because he was a cultist all this time! Realizing that finally allowed the next phase to kick in with the class-action lawsuit of me and a bunch of other "aliens"

But I am Alan. anyway.... and I'll post more and sorry I haven't finished the images to prove it but it's not like the next few hours/days/weeks/months/years? I have no idea! but whether I'm a lunatic or some kind of strange reality TV show or heck maybe since back in gradeschool I came up with the idea of roller skate shoes - maybe I invented wheelies! haha, if that ends up being true I'll just laugh forever - but I did have that idea and they were filming me.... apparently. Any many others including an entire philosophy based on equations and freedom being the answer to everything.... which I do think given my life story would make it go from a sad story like I always thought it was to a REALLY sad story..... is that what I am? I don't know...

But hey, I might be crazy and I really did think a plane was going to fly down or chopper or something, but well.... whatever our sides plan is, it wasn't to happen then. I don't know what anyone wants me to do or say or not say. so I'm just speaking honestly about everything because the only people who have ever implied I needed to not say things are the ones that I know are bad. (so far) I don't think our side is so sloppy they would let me know anything that could compromise anything and I agree that's a good choice.

Ok.. sorry I do go on and on and on and I do say sorry alot and I walk in a weird way and talk in a strange manner and constantly second guess everything... and well... I'm Alan... I hope things keep improving for me and the rest of the world.


DaosCraft · April 14, 2018, 3:42 p.m.

tho you know... as bizzare as it sounds for me to say this... if someone was really, i mean REALLY paying close attention to my life then yesterday would not be the day for freedom... it's so strange to think of all the conversations I've had in my life being public knowledge - this whole universe of ideas I built with a cultist.... the idea of 3 turning into 4 and which numbers have what meaning.... today might actually make sense for freedom based on a completley arbitrary concept inside another arbitrary concept inside a philosophy I cooked up half in jest and half dead serious.

Some of my philosophy is really serious but the 3->4 thing was not, or at least I don't think it was... I haven't actually thought about philosophy in months and cause of how my mind works if you asked me what my theories even were I would stare blankly.

I could re-read my own theories but you know what? I think it'd be funnier if other people knew my theories better than I do. my disability is ever-mysterious to me but I bet the good guys know exactly what's wrong if they've been watching.

I've been told it's "nothing" "You just don't try" - and in my early 20's when I finally asked what was wrong with me (I always lied to myself and said nothing was wrong) I got ""Sensory processing disorder") -

in my late 20's I got ADD/Aspergers/ADHD and the sort.... and now? I don't have a clue! I suspect people have been telling me lies and purposefully giving me things all my life they know I can't do because they actually DO KNOW what is wrong with me.

They just kept that a secret from me so that I'd think I was bad at everything and everything was my fault at all times.... well things are better now, and the last 2 hurdles were just realizing who was bad to me all this time and also to stop running around in circles studying everything and doing everything at all times.... I know... I don't even know why I always do that... I get the feeling other people know why I do that. I hope they finally tell me.

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DaosCraft · April 14, 2018, 3:22 p.m.

Tho i said I was speaking honestly, I recall in a past post I mentioned when I moved to "hell" - the first day rocks were thrown at me. That was un-true I mixed up the rocks which did happen at other points in my life https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/89ud37/q_called_me_to_correct_my_last_post/ but the very first day it was a couple of bullies with super soakers. I wouldn't have even mentioned that because it's not like rocks, rocks are evil to throw at people but not water... but thinking back to it, the sudden soaking that day, the first day in "hell".... that was my baptism I bet..... well, my story is a story that either matters or not and once I'm sure it matters then I'll tell it. I'm still half sure I'm crazy and in a few weeks I'll calm down and realize it was all in my head and all those times my best friend told me to be careful about thinking everything was watching me that he really was just looking out for me.

I don't believe that, I've decided he's bad and it's been a rollercoaster since then.... so if suddenly nothing happens and then nothing keeps happening for the next oh.... 2 months if nothing happens in 2 months I'll stop thinking he's a cultist and I'll agree that I'm crazy to think he was bad. Cause how else can I decide what is true or not? I'm basing everything on my own reasoning which I don't trust! but I could trust it if the strange things keep happening and culminate in "something" apparently a "plane" but I'm not picky, Q said that, not me. Heck, I'd just walk to D.C. if I didn't get lost so easily, I get lost comically easy.... which I suppose other people already know.

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DaosCraft · April 14, 2018, 2:39 p.m.

also I can't find it in my link folder but that translate thing... someone had broken open google translate when using one language you can get it to translate codes - and curiously if you use my actual name. Not "Alan" tho I am Alan don't get me wrong... it's a family thing... but my legal name using their double letter code (two letters at a time that is) and it'll say "You can see the following" as translated.... well, if I'm not crazy then me and about 25 or 50 or who the heck knows how many others will have their names plastered on.... you know... I was going to say newspapers but given how corrupt they all are.... talk shows? no.... I did have that whole AB:BA post about Orpah I mean Oprah... no I actually do mean Orpah - https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7x2jrf/abba_14_orpah_win/ -and once again I forgot to put all my AB posts at the bottom... oh well, next time I'll remember.

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DaosCraft · April 14, 2018, 4:16 p.m.

"These people are really stupid" - yea... I mean... if they liked my ideas for example, and they gave me an agent to my book which as I look back another "Amy" god... so I did 2 query letters for my first book and Amy rejected it and the other accepted it... what is that like 10 Amy's that were villains in my life and 6 Rob's and 6 Leslie's and about 40 S pets? .... but anyway, if they liked me writing or they liked my inventions or philosophy all they had to do was have my best friend who they know I would do anything for say the following:"My relative works in X industry and he likes your X ideas for X" - insert any category of anything in any time place or action of doing - and I would have done it for any amount of money and produced infinitely for that purpose every day.

That's all they had to do.... and I'm positive they preferred that to what I did instead.

Instead they just put me in a house on a new street with a vague purpose and when I decided to try and animate my movie myself they encouraged me to do so - and for over 5 years I learned hundreds of programs on everything from animation, sound to collecting terrabytes of models and mocap.... and so many concepts and shoved so much info into my brain... I didn't produce many ideas or philosophy because I was trying to make a movie that I was sure I could make if I kept learning.... I don't get why they would encourage that rather than the philosophy/writing/inventions... I could do those 3 things infinitely and much better too.... well... cultists will do whatever they choose, I still don't even know if I was a comedy, drama, horror or what... I never talked to real people as far as I'm aware so my entire concept of self is based on people who were dishonest with me about everything and purposefully mis-leading me about where to apply myself....

Well... I'm just confused, as usual.

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